resonates so deep. seriously check it out.
we i not become wise in our my own eyes and may we i learn to love deeper and may we i worship Him for who He is not who we i want Him to be.
If that which is hoped for is out of reach and unattainable,
if that which is hoped for cannot swim in the same river,
if that which is hoped for runs…
That which is hoped for may require more than hope.
“Hope is a byproduct of the grace that we have received from God, and is the only reason in which we are here.”
If this is true, Hope’s satisfaction is not merely in gaining, having, or attaining.
Hope is the enjoyment over what we still yet to have.
There is a variance when this hope is applied to finite and Infinite objectives,
But the similar consequence of hoping is that whether you experience a taste of the fullness of that which is hoped for or not, the greater value is in the yet to be had, which is the fullness itself.
Come Lord Jesus come…
Drop Thy still dews of quietness
Til all our strivings cease.
Take from our souls the strain and stress,
And let our ordered lives confess
The beauty of Thy peace
-John Greenleaf Whittier
For my few faithful readers- here is an update for you, at last! I have been home about six weeks and I do apologize for not updating sooner. I must warn you that even today’s post won’t be too informative as I don’t have much time right now… but hopefully as I continue to process all that went on in my heart and life in China I’ll update more regularly!
So far I have just been a chaotic mess trying to transition back into my American life. I’m back working at good ol’ Starbucks and going to The Resolved Church on Morena Blvd.
As the days go by I find myself missing China more and more- my roommates, the food, my foreign and local friends who taught me so much, the crazy buses and overwhelming language… but I think missing China has only taught me to appreciate even more where I am while I’m there- so thankfully I have learned to channel these emotions into more intentional and enjoyable living while I’m in San Diego for this season- life is such a beautiful gift and I’m so thankful to be in this amazing city surrounded by the people I am. The Lord has graciously given me more joy than I know what to do with.
That’s lesson 1! Another update to come soon, promise!
Where do I even begin? You’ll get an update that is actually worth reading when I’m back in the states but for now just know I’m safe and happy happy happy!
The people are so beautiful and the weather is perfect (at least for now)
We have spent the last couple days driving about an hour to the Holiness Boarding School where I have spent my time french braiding hair, getting my nails painted and answering a hundred questions. Oh! And teaching the girls how to dance to Hillsong in their little room. Wouldn’t trade this short last minute journey for anything- there laughs are so precious and I now know how to sing ‘This is the day’ in Bangla.
Please pray for depth and discipleship among the locals and for Him to be glorified big in my small time here.
I’m going to miss:
-mopping every time I shower
-making a mess when I eat so they know i like it
-slurping my drinks
-buses that have so many people in it it’s beyond a fire hazard
-paying $2 for a taxi across town
-getting stared at like I’m a celebrity
-good conversations in the kitchen while our home made bread bakes
-maifa, uno, cheat, ma jong
-pork for dessert
-hanging out in a big group speaking English even though I’m the only one whose mother tongue it is
-outhouses in villages that are really just dirt piles behind a wall
-turning on a proxy with a complicated password just to access facebook
-praying with a group of girls and agreeing with them even though they’re speaking German, Finnish or Chinese and I have no idea what they are saying but God does.
-movie nights and banana bread
-too much oil and too many spices in the Chinese food I attempt to make… I’m not a bad cook your taste buds just aren’t cultured enough
-real Indian chai
-having to code all my Christian words in public
-making funny faces at children staring at me just to have them blush and look away
-being in the future
-wo you shi
And the list goes on.
Please pray for me as I head to Bangladesh in two days-
for safe travel, divine appointments, intentionality, a servant’s heart, wisdom and focus.
America, I’ll see you in 16 days.
SOLI DEO GLORIA
seven days in X.ning, two days on trains, eleven days in Bangladesh, one night in Shanghai, sixteen hours in flight (which will amount to two hours on the clock- thank you time change)—> arrive in CALIFORNIA.
This morning, as I drank some coffee and looked out my kitchen window to the street where people were still setting off fire crackers in celebration of the New Year, I thought to myself- ‘this feels like the calm before the storm and it is scaring the heck out of me.’ I feel so happy and blessed and looked after its unreal. I started praying that God would prepare me for what’s to come because I do not want to be a little sailor caught off guard.
I read Ephesians this morning and I was so met and refreshed by the truth that He knows. He has always known. He loves. He has always loved. He prepared it all beforehand.
I needn’t fear. The Captain is with me.
the ultimate meaning of true womanhood is this: It is a distinctive calling of God to display the glory of his Son in ways that would not be displayed if there were no womanhood.
“if I wasn’t a Calvinist before I sure am now”
this never gets old.
it’s a must watch.
“Think of Me”